Jessie Marie Saupitty was born in Albuquerque New Mexico and raised in Everett, Washington state. Her story is one so many of us can relate to. Here’s her testimony in her own words.
One year ago, I went through the most difficult time of my life. No job, kicked out of my house by someone I loved, marriage on the rocks, newborn child, totally frustrated.
I saw my life not going where I had planned or wanted. I was in the pit of hell. All this while, I kept wondering how did I let it get this far?
I realized it was due to all my bad decisions, not being willing to say “No”, because I felt I deserved better.
But instead, my self-worth was at an all-time low. There were days I would hold my children, my 5 year old son and my newborn, and just cry as they slept.
I prayed on my knees to God saying:
I know I’ve sinned horribly and this may be my punishment for all I’ve done, and I’m truly sorry. I haven’t lived a life for you because I didn’t know anything but now I do!
I want to hear your voice Lord, and truly seek you in everything I do. From waking up in the morning, to raising my children in your ways, Lord.
I’ve been lazy, selfish, lied, cheated and I don’t deserve your forgiveness but I truly need someone to show me the right way to live and that’s you (JESUS CHRIST)!
You can read the full prayer here: When I need someone to show the way
After that season of my life, boy did I prayed! I read my Bible day and night, and finally, got baptized in Jesus’ name. My world was coming apart but my soul was at peace with Jesus.
My Amazing life today
Fast forward a year to today and my life is amazing! My marriage has been restored and it’s where I had always prayed for it to be.
The trials I face now sometimes feel like they’ll sweep me under the wave and bash me against the rocks, but all the while I hold firmly on to Jesus Christ.
My faith is definitely being tested by God and not only Him but satan. I’ve battled with insecurity, feeling worthless, not amounting to much in life.
And I’ve realized that I have placed my views and thinking in this world, rather than on Christ.
My God has spoken to me and said “Turn back, child.” My own fears of being rejected by others has stopped me from turning back.
Now, more than ever I’ve gotten confirmation that I am not to be afraid of anything and to give up everything to follow Jesus Christ.
Truly follow Him. I’ve strayed from the path but I want to come back and stay back. This is for those struggling with faith and worried that they may not be good enough to come back.
I’m right there with you and I know this is the first step to denying yourself for Jesus!