Sometime last week I was informed that I was recommended to go to another location in an acting capacity at work; it is presently the most difficult office to work in.
I immediately said no in my mind, I mean the audacity of them to ask me to go there, especially since parts of that job would be brand new to me. I rationalized about all the reasons I should say no, and wondered what purpose going there would serve, and a whole lot of other thoughts entered my mind.
Then I said to myself – you know God is in control of your life, so why don’t you tell Him how you feel and seek His wisdom on what you should do. So I prayed – and nothing happened, I went to church, and my questions were not answered, and I kept praying about the situation, mulling it over in my mind, trying to find reasons I should take up the post.
After speaking to a friend of mine, she said I am the one who has to live with the decision and that I should weigh it out, she suggested I write down all the positives and negatives and have a look at it and make my mind up from there.
So I took pen and paper, wrote down positives on one side and negative on the other. I honestly gave the positive a good try, I wrote things like: someone believes that I can do the job, it could be an opportunity to grow, and it was just a short period and so on. Soon enough I had no other item to add to that list, so I started with the negatives; I wrote things like: the distance is too far, the money is not enough to pay my travelling, going into a war zone, staff unsupportive, no one to lean on, they could be using me, I really don’t like this job, and on and on. I wrote until I ran out of space, much to my despair the negatives were almost double the positives.
I looked to heaven and said God this is really too tough a job to take, I really don’t know how to say no. Well later that evening the Manager of the entire department called to speak to me about something and I mentioned it to her. She was surprised and would you believe she was in agreement that this was not an assignment I should take at this time.
Oh I felt the weight come off my shoulders, especially when she indicated that she would speak to the necessary parties involved in the decision making. Oh what a wonderful God we serve, He didn’t answer my question directly to me, but He did make a way for my situation to be resolved without me having to find words to say to decline the acting (which in our organization is not done without negative consequences).
Matthew 6:8 says………’Your Father knows what you need before you ask Him’. I encourage you today that if you are facing an issue that has no answers – go to God and tell Him your heart, and be brave enough to hear His voice and obey His leading and watch Him work things out for your benefit, Amen.